my life's intro ^^,

Mission gives direction to one's life. People need this to be motivated and encouraged to go on with life. Actually I don't really have a permanent mission in life because I usually think less ahead of my future. It's not that I'm not ambitious and have not had think of it, it"s just that I enjoyed what i have right now and be contented of it but perhaps I might be needing one. hm mm.... sounds fine... I just need to share some of my experiences. They can help me establish my mission in life.

Experience is the sum total of the things that have happened to a person's life. It is our involvement in an activity or exposure to events or people that leads to an increase in knowledge or skills. Through experience we gain knowledge and we learn to identify right from wrong.In life we always encounter problems and trials and through our experiences we had learn to face them with head held high. I had encounter many trials in life most specially, emotional problems.When did I transform into more meaningful person? As I want to look back my past, the years I was not that completely a whole well-being, it became vague as the present years came to view. It changed because of the experiences I went through. I realized just by now how important are the things that were came by and stop just to enlighten my doomed mind. To make it clearer, I am going to elaborate some of it.It started on June of 2005. It was on my first year of high school that I first experienced to be accepted at the same time to be treated as a normal individual, I mean it not literally. I first met those people and I looked them with no interest. They were my classmates and said to be my classmates until my fourth year in high school. I treated them only as my classmates. I did not affiliate with them. I tried to keep myself away from them as possible. If possible, no emotions involved. I set my mind already that my classmates were just the same as the people I encountered before. I am afraid to be left again. I came to point that I wore a mask. I made myself different from my original self. I could not trust them. But it was necessary to befriend them so I befriended them only when I want something from them. Most of the time, I was kind of plastic. Those things continued until half of my second year because my world changed when one moment came to happen, still on my second year. One time, we had an open forum. I did not know what’s within their minds. They have been discussing a lot of things. In the later part, they talked about each person in our class and when it was my turn, they talked non-stop. They said they did not like me, that I was a plastic moron and a bitch. Bitch? That hurts a lot. I stood up and ran out and find an empty room to hide out. I stayed there for a long time. Unstoppable tears came from my eyes. I was terribly affected.When I was a bit alright, I went back to my classmates and defended myself. I explained a lot and I made sure they would understand. After explaining my side, I gave my apology and thank them for letting me realized my mistakes. They hugged me and told me that people are not the same. Each individual has unique characteristics to value. And they were the best people that I could have. I burst to tears again for I realized many things. I realized that it is fun when you have so called real friends. From that time, I learn to control myself and put the necessary attitude towards an event. I learn to value others as I value myself. Until now, the love, belongingness, recognition and acceptance that I feel when I am with them remains. My friends brought me where I stand now. They are the reason why I am what I am now and they play a big part of my identity. I would never regret the day God gave them to me. That was a moment to remember.Through this experience I might say my mission is to become strong emotionally and to gain more self confidence. They could be the stepping stones toward my success in the future. We should learn to apply what we have learned through our experiences to become a total person and to have a good quality of life in the future.

~ just like an eagle, soar high! ~